i tell my love to wreck it all..
cut out all the ropes and let me fall.. ♪ ♫ ♪
missing home for Christmas..
→ just a thought of not celebrating Christmas with my family this year breaks me into pieces..i may sound so dramatic but i guess that’s just how i feel and ic ant help it :( ..i can still remember how i wish to celebrate Christmas away from them no more traditional “noche buena” and just partying, no more going to church just seeing friends and no more family gathering just me myself, friends and a well paid job.. after college i made it!..i’m away from home, almost have everything i want and enjoying most of it without having a thought of how my family would feel in celebrating Christmas without me.. my 2nd year being away from home starts to hit me hard and snap me back to reality..realization comes in one by one, pain of missing them was as painful as not being with them for a year.. 3rd year was extreme..regrets of not trying to be with them for the past 2 years during Christmas is killing me..ghost of how i wish i had spend my last Christmas in Philippines with them hunts me every night..memories of celebrating it with them drives me crazy as days goes by before Christmas..crying my loneliness out helps a bit but cant deal with missing them more every time i shed a tear.. now this is my fourth year i thought im braver, thought im gonna make it through but im completely wrong..still 45 days to go and im already breaking into pieces.. how i wish to be home for Christmas..where my heart belongs, where Christmas means a lot than money and anything else..where love, peace, forgiveness, sharing and joy reigns in our heart.
for my November 10, 2008.
i used to condemn myself for leaving you behind (and i still am), blame myself for causing you such pain and hate myself for making you cry..
wish i could just snap you out of your world and let you know how i regret giving up on us and how sorry i am to let go but i guess those were just part of my wishful thinking now..
i strongly believe that everything happens for a reason, but i wonder what could be the reason why you have to bear all those pain, why you have to meet someone who would let you down who would leave you behind and hurt you after all what you have done for her..i hope one day i could forgive myself for everything and would get to understand the reason behind all this..
i miss you bha..thank you for all those wonderful memories we shared, for those times when you wipe my tears to dry when i cry, when you laugh with me from all my stupid jokes, when you offer your shoulder to lean on when im sleepy, when you hold my hand everytime you can and for always staying strong for me when i almost give up in life..im so sorry for everything i have done wrong.
THANK YOU and I’M SORRY FOR EVERYTHING BHA..
Laugh when you can. Apologize when you should. And let go of what you can’t change. Love deeply and forgive quickly. Take chances and give your everything. Life is too short to be anything but happy. You have to take the good with the bad. Love what you got. Always remember what you had. Forgive, but don’t forget. Learn from your mistakes but never regret. People change and things go wrong, But always remember that life goes on.
–(Source: wordsandlyrics)
Via Words & LyricsI don’t understand why some people think that since someone hurt you, you need to hurt them back to show them how it feels. That just makes you exactly like them, you should never want to hurt someone, even if they hurt you. Be the better person.
– (via wordsandlyrics) Via Words & Lyrics
→ right!..age doesn’t matter in making dreams come true..it’s the perseverance and determination to make it happen is :)
..we may think we’re old enough to make new dreams..goals..and plans but as long as we have time to make everything happens then it’s never too late.. :)
– Via Words & Lyrics→ eVeRydAy wOuLd aLwAyS bE tHe bEst dAy oF mY lIfE wHeN iM wItH fAtHer (pRoUd tAtAy’s gIrl)
About me
I'd rather be a COULD-BE if I cannot be an ARE; because a COULD-BE is a MAYBE who is reaching for a star. I'd rather be a HAS-BEEN than a MIGHT-HAVE-BEEN, by far; for a MIGHT-HAVE-BEEN has never been, but a has was once an ARE.”
